Personality Behind The Songs

Last night…our neighbors had a celebration.As usual,Videoke would be a source of entertainment.Me and my housemates joined the little party they have just for the sake of harmony in the household.

I sang a song upon the request of my fellow housemate.Upon hearing my voice as i sing,"Tatay", an elderly man who is one of my neighbor began to requests old songs for me to sing.Cabaret,New York New York etc…also other love songs I used to sing.

Unnoticingly…"Tatay" was already observing me.He sat beside me and began to tell his observation…"Alam mo,isa o dalawa lang ang song na kinanta mo…kilala na kita.I know your personality already".I looked at him with amazement."Conservative ka and very reserved.Your hiding many painful memories.You thought that with your dissabilities no man will love you sincerely.Ika nga manliligaw palang sayo…sinasarado mo na ang pinto ng puso mo.Puro sad songs kinakanta mo,I selected songs that will make you happy but you keep on coming back to sad songs….Parang ayaw mo lumigaya.You should change your outlook in life in order to have directions and be happy."

I wasn’t able to react on what he was saying…I was a little bit surprise upon hearing those impressions.But,I prefered not to react on it for it might create a long conversations and arguements.I just continued listening…"alam mo the completenes of being a woman is having a child.Kung wala kang anak,walang purpose ang existence mo dito sa mundo.Mag-asawa ka o kaya kahit pabuntis ka na lang.Lets hope that you can still have a child para magkaroon ng direksyon buhay mo." I just smiled to tatay and thanked him for all the things he said.He tapped me in my forehead and said…I want you to be open and savor the happiness of life.

Alone in my room…I had a reality check about the things tatay told me.Its true that I am conservative and quite reserved.But it doesnt mean that I have many painful memories…i do have admirers but many of them are really not ready to accept my situation.Afraid of hurting me for I am meant to be loved.Others..walang magic.hehe! If only they will know me.Tatay is speaking with the wisdom of his age based on the experiences and values he learned to his life’s journey.I reached this age i do believe upon the guidance of God’s love,my family and friends affections….what more can I ask for.Having a partner in life..a loving husband and having a child….I will consider it as a bonus blessings from God as part of my life’s journey.If He wills it….that would be another mission He wants me to fulfill.Besides,God knows me… more than anyone else even without a SONG.

POSTED Feb. 26, 2007