Solitude…

I was walking excitedly along the grandeur part of UST.Enjoying the ambiance of seems to be like Paris scenery.I’m going to meet my very special friend whom I didnt see for about a year already.He’s staying only for a week. Thankful that he gave time to see me knowing how hectic his schedule was.I miss him so much.

But,unexpected circumstances happened as I wait for him.Received a text message teling that he will be late and asked me to join another friend of ours also waiting for him.

Finally,he came….wanted to give him a warm hug and a kiss…but…smiling at him was only thing i did.We went to a restaurant and have a little talk.I wanted to hear his stories and enjoy his presence.But, after a few bites in my tuna sandwich he told me had to go.So little time…looking at him was the only way to imprint the memories of that moment.

I received a text message telling how sorry he was of giving a little time.After giving a reply… tears began to show up but tried to stop it because i was in my way home.

Alone in my room….there,I gave my tears fall freely.

I looked at the image of Jesus in the altar….express the pain I felt.Slowly, I recall the passages I have read to one of the books written by Henry Nouwen……

" Why are people leaving all the time ?

Why then do you have to suffer the pain of so

many departures?

It may feel as if people do not really love you !

Because… if they love you…

Why would they leave you ?"

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Your joy and your pain give you a Mission.

Those who came to live with you,

from whom you received much,

and to whom you gave much,

aren’t just leaving you.

You are sending them back to their respective

places to bring some of the love they have lived

with you.Its painful and hard to let them go….

But,when you realize that this is a Mission,….

You will be able to send your friends to continue

their journeys without loosing the joy

they brought you.

The coming and leaving of friends….

The experiences of love

and betrayal of care

and indifference of generosity

and stinginess

can become the way to true…Human Freedom.

I ended up my crying moments and eventually get a peaceful sleep……the truth is…that very special friend of mine did not leave me.He is in my heart…staying there always.

GOD BLESS YOU : )
POSTED June 15,2007